the math part is ugly and i believe it. same pattern as coding.
brain and general fitness i get.
you are right that "pick what you will be forever" is eating me. it still does not feel fake from where i am sitting.
had to search rope access jobs. that is cool. the other stuff about you is surprising too.
cash this month is the part i can actually use. not marry a job. just get paid for standing somewhere and being liable.
thank you for writing this long. it is really helpful. talking here helps more than anything.