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Sounds like you're pretty depressed. I've been there before (and I go back there semi-regularly). Plan a camping trip. Getting away from screens and into nature is great for mental health. Make sure you're getting enough sleep and not eating garbage. Also eat almonds. They're supposed to help with depression. If you don't already I recommend some form of exercise regularly. Strenuous physical effort is great for your mental health. I like powerlifting. Hiking is great too. If you're starting from nothing, just start going on walks and doing body weight exercises like push ups, crunches, squats, pull ups (do negatives if you can't do one until you can). Fat people become athletic with effort, skinny people become athletic with effort, people with missing limbs become athletic with effort. Work at it and don't make excuses.
The modern world is designed to depress those smart enough to realize they're in a cage. Don't let it. Take control of the things you can and work productively to change your life in a positive direction. Don't let yourself make excuses. They may be valid, but they're not helpful.
I agree the world sucks. That's why people need to start fucking doing something about it beyond "protest" or "vote". Free men weren't meant to be caged.
it is not one event. the world is shit in almost every direction and it is getting worse. then they tell you that is your problem to carry and also that you should be grateful too. fuck that. the idea of having to be grateful to be alive is absurd. you would not care if you never existed. now that you do, you get to work, eat the random harm, watch people you like get chewed, and die. fuck that. i wish i had never been born. every time I go to sleep I hope I'll never wake up and i cannot even say that out loud because they send you to therapists and medicate you for it. because you are not supposed to feel like that. it is not fucking normal. i am not normal. fuck that.