If you're determined to go the more drastic route, I won't stop you. I've been close before myself. I would offer you the thing that gave me comfort "Why should it be me and not the people who create and maintain the structures causing the trouble in my life?". If you're willing to risk it all, why not risk it all trying to fucking win?
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If you're determined to go the more drastic route, I won't stop you. I've been close before myself. I would offer you the thing that gave me comfort "Why should it be me and not the people who create and maintain the structures causing the trouble in my life?". If you're willing to risk it all, why not risk it all trying to fucking win?