the lists are all skills. skills do not answer why any of it is worth doing. monero is a door. the rabbit hole after the door is the same old one. is there a point. most of my friends are either medicated or just think the world is shit and getting worse, then get told to be grateful. gratitude for being alive is the part i cannot buy. you would not care if you never existed. so the ideology i keep looking for is not another hobby. it is an argument for existence that is not just coping. if that is the monero hole, that is the one. the rest is costumes.
the lists are all skills. skills do not answer why any of it is worth doing. monero is a door. the rabbit hole after the door is the same old one. is there a point. most of my friends are either medicated or just think the world is shit and getting worse, then get told to be grateful. gratitude for being alive is the part i cannot buy. you would not care if you never existed. so the ideology i keep looking for is not another hobby. it is an argument for existence that is not just coping. if that is the monero hole, that is the one. the rest is costumes.