This book is a message from someone who once stood at the dark fork in the road and chose to keep walking.
Here is a foreword by Tetsuya Miyamoto himself, the author of Irreplaceable Me, a Japanese mathematician best known as the inventor of the KenKen puzzle:
"...why did I decide to write Irreplaceable Me? Because it makes me sad whenever I read articles about young people who commit suicide. When I was in my teens, I thought about dying all the time. I didn’t think my life was worth very much, and I was sure I’d be dead before twenty. The only thing that kept me from killing myself was the sense that I was at rock bottom—that it couldn’t get any worse — and that it would be a shame to end it all there. I figured I could always die later after reaching the next level. I started university, moved in with a family that ran a newspaper distributorship, and started a new life. Soon I was too busy to think about dying.
I wrote this book because I want to help young people who are anxious about the same things I was as a teenager to feel better about themselves and to think twice before committing suicide. There’s nothing wrong with anxiety; positive anxiety helps you grow. But negative anxiety can make your heart grow dark, and drag down your self-esteem, and ultimately make you want to disappear..."
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Sadly I don’t have this book right now - only these pics (and it’s even sadder that some people here could have benefited from it). The book isn’t available on Anna’s Archive too.
It’s ¥989 (≈ $6) on Amazon Japan, so the first person who posts a full English version in decent-quality PDF here, so everyone who wants/needs it can get it, (or uploads it to AA / Z-Library / Libgen and posts the link here) will be awarded a bounty of 0.015 XMR (cc @JapanAnon).
~10:25 AM PST, 11/14/26
https://limewire.com/d/R6g2f#4bqOYa221D
https://wormhole.app/PB1xbY#vmWCdQQvrAo7ThZtCl01QA
https://anonshare.dev/share/ro8_X_8D4c4yzJTpucpm2uko
https://filebin.net/dexqbgw2z0yzmkys
https://storage.to/QJZebbQly
I'll hopefully upload it to those libraries as well, I'll share the result on the edit section of this post, likely within 24 hours.
The original formatting was double pages, if you prefer single pages:
https://limewire.com/d/VDcpB#3BG7tVpD7n
https://wormhole.app/Q5lPbJ#tyfZYrpRlRueHnLJMciGPQ
https://file.kiwi/9fa651f6#HviOAm-FGepNZNvzv1Az6A
https://storage.to/YC00A5tFQ
https://anonshare.dev/share/Sgr_6IuNAyExZ6Fv9oQYq6UC
https://filebin.net/mslut946hcorir0i
If you want raw PNG images of the pages, which's +%20 less compressed, slightly higher quality than PDF itself, I can provide them as well. Bit I wager quality difference/increase will be minimal.
...bc I used as minimal PDF compression as possible.
https://libgen.li/edition.php?id=209032795
"The book was sent for moderation. It will appear in the library within 24 hours" - Z-library
thank you @SoulReaver <3
it's incredibly impressive: speed and everything!
I clicked "award bounty", hope it worked :)
this is amazing having done so much in so little time. PRAISE!
PRAISE INDEED!
Thank you, @SoulReaver! I successfully downloaded the book, and I'll buy a couple of physical copies to give as gifts and support the author. And thank you, @AilliA, for sharing this -- it'll benefit many more people than you mentioned here.
That’s exactly what I hoped for: that this book would reach as many people as possible who might need it :)
At some point, I stopped caring about death, both fearing it and/or wanting it. I just hope it will be fast and senseless. It was an incredibly liberating feeling to know that the physical world has no control over me, simply being aware that I alone hold the power to decide whether to end my life in any given moment, is such a profound source of freedom AND this realization is so powerful (in my case) that it completely eliminates any desire to act on that choice...
Thanks for sharing this book and these thoughts.
I truly admire your ability to reach this level of lucidity. I went through very dark times when I was younger, and I understand better what this form of freedom means.
I deeply respect the path you have walked.
oh damn looks like sudoku :O
like, our grandparents didnt have videogames back then, and many would just sit and watch tv, the news, the worst kind of brainrot
my grandpa was a bit like that, watching lots of tv and news, but he also kept doing sudoku until his last days, kept those braincell actives, the type of activities that could be helpful to delay things like alzhimer/demancia and whatnot
but tv is not all that bad either
that might sound like the dumbest thing ever but in my darkest days, being like "i gotta make it until next week so can watch the new weekly episode of that tv show i really enjoy"
that literally sounds so stupid but it been very helpful, the small enjoyments of life
or like, when cant make groceries for awhile cause too broke or whatever, when finally getting to eat actual food is like the best day ever, those small things that make the day a little bit brighter do help to keep walking
gardening been also helping
seasonal gardening rather than mass producing indoor or whatever
getting some of that sun vitamin that helps on not feeling too down, watching those plant growing overtime then when harvest time comes is chill time
walking the doggos helps too getting some of that sun vitamin as well and doggos are precious af, dont wanna make them all sad by not being there for them no more type thing
some people do deserve to be sad, but doggos dont, so, for the doggos :3
Your time to shine!! @babyboi098