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The last part is the most important: "Got mad at myself" is real strength... most people get mad at the world instead.
Reading you, I keep thinking that from my own life the best people I’ve known so far have one very uncomfortable (for society) thing in common: they despise their parents, some to the point of raw hatred (I call them "biological manufacturers", I don’t remember my childhood until puberty at all, just a black hole; that should tell you everything).
Homelessness experience also seems almost like a requirement to forge a decent soul in this fucked-up world... someone said that "Digital nomad is just a homeless person with the latest MacBook Pro" :)))
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TL;DR: I have a brutal, cynical little theory (brace yourself, dear readers, most of you won’t like it at all lol): you can have a happy childhood or a happy adulthood, but never both. If you were a happy Western suburban kid, adulthood hits hard: responsibilities pile up and you’re left missing that carefree, rainbow-and-unicorn time, stuck nostalgic for what feels like the best days of your life. Flip it around: the rougher your start, the more freedom and responsibility in adulthood feel like a gift 🕊️
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Some of this is likely bias. I think that having a hard childhood makes you tougher which leaves you better equipped for the world, but having a strong character built by a strong family presence (with family of character) leaves you better equipped than a shitty childhood just because someone with a shitty childhood likely has issues around emotional/trust/relationship fields and maybe doesn't have the good adult example which is so impactful for children. For what it's worth I'm speaking as someone from the shitty childhood side. The unfortunate reality is that many people judge the quality of family by wealth and even if they have quality parents with wealth they don't spend enough time with them to pass on the character. Too many people are raised by government schools even when they have good parents, too many rich parents become bad parents because they don't appreciate the importance of their time, guidance, and example. I hope your perception isn't the case because I want to have kids that have a better life than me without some of the hardship (also potentially bias). Although, it sounds like to me you were over-generalizing a bit and you meant the easier your childhood, the harder your START to adulthood
I appreciate that.
There was a few times in my life that I could do the same thing; pack and leave in a moment. Lived in tents, sleeping under the stars and just letting the days go by. I have fond memoires of it.
I was still very suss of the systems then. It's why I lived that way. It was simple and I could get by.
I've lived a couple lives in my day. Grew up pretty well on financially but had shit parents, and not role models who understood how my mind worked. I ended up homeless after high school for a few years. Somehow got a union job, made pretty good money for 15 years, drank it and smoked it all up then got fat and bitter. Didn't learn a fucking thing.
Kinda just got mad at myself at 35. I'm a different duck for sure but just knew I wanted better for myself so started running and just trying to be more consistent and intentional daily.
That was 2016 I found two things in 2017 that let me latch onto something daily Triathlon and Monero strangely enough.
Started with one 1700X in a bachelor pad.
10 years later I have a home, a partner, and two wonderful step-sons. A large part of it is because of the daily effort of those two things; I built something somehow just by showing up.
My story has a fuck ton more layers and trauma to that haha!
I really believe in Monero, what it's purpose is and especially how the community can still mine and hold it up. It is really something special in this day and age for something not to get corrupted or eaten up by something big and greedy.
Monero is real...and in a digital age...it really could be a great unknow. It's an honor to be able to support it how I do.
Tips go around and they come around.
Keep hashing Bud! Be consistent. You don't know what the future you holds.